Archive | March 2013

Mustang Sally

We did it! We pulled the trigger and bought our new Mustang. We went to the dealership after work this evening. I wasn’t expecting to buy a car today, but we got a good deal. We go back to pick it up tomorrow. Cue the heart palpitations. This is an excellent way to get my mind off of this two week wait. Even though I already feel like it didn’t work. I just don’t “feel” pregnant. Last year my best friend and her husband bought a new Mustang, then the next month they found out they were expecting. I wish that would happen to us.

This past weekend we went to Gatlinburg  again. We went snow tubing with another couple. It was a blast! The weather was gorgeous. It was 60 degrees so we didn’t even have to wear our coats. We got a little sunburned too. It was a little strange to be playing in the snow without having to wear a coat, but that  is Tennessee for you. If you have never visited the Smokies, please do! It is beautiful! I am so thankful I live so close to such beauty.

I hope we all get good news soon.



He’s Back!

I went and picked him up from the airport early this evening. I missed him like crazy!! All the ladies at work said that after we have been married for a long time, I will be happy for the break when he is out of town. We have already been married for almost seven years, so I don’t see that happening. Ever. He is really my best friend. Plus, I hate being home alone at night. Sometimes it is nice to have some time to be by yourself though.

Today is cycle day 13. I usually ovulate on day 17 or 18. I haven’t even been using OPKs. Maybe I will just skip that process this month. There’s no point in wasting the $ on it when my cycle has gotten to be pretty predictable. One thing that does bug me about all this is, every time I have my mid-cycle blood draw it costs us $80. Our insurance wont cover it. I thought they were supposed to. They cover everything that is diagnostic, but nothing that is considered treatment. I don’t understand how having my blood drawn is considered treatment, but whatever. I will pay it if it means we know for sure my body has the correct amount of hormones to support a pregnancy if and when it happens again. I will not waste $ on pregnancy tests this time either. I am going to wait to test until I am late. Easier said than done. I always say that I need to know as soon as possible so I can start Lovenox. I don’t think a few days will make a huge difference.

Hubs said that one of his coworkers that traveled with him had a welcoming committee at the airport. It was his wife and two little girls. They had a welcome sign and everything. Hubs said he wishes we had a couple of little girls. I do too. So bad. I wish I could give him a baby. I can’t help but feel like it is my fault for all of our losses. I know he doesn’t blame me, but I can’t get it out of my head. I want to make all his dreams come true. I want to give him everything. I love him so much.

He brought me back some Japanese candy. I have no idea what it is since we can’t read Japanese. I guess I could Google it. He also brought me some chocolates. When I opened the box, they were so gorgeous. I almost didn’t want to eat them. He brought me a tapestry of Nagoya Castle. It is so pretty. We are both exhausted, and the bed is calling our names. We shall oblige. Perhaps some pics of his adventures soon? Good night y’all. ❤

Cycle 3

Well, needless to say, we did not get pregnant this time either. This will be my third round of Clomid since we started trying again. Hubs decided to share with our friends that we are trying again.  I had hoped we could just keep it between us for now. Oh well. Last weekend we went to Gatlinburg. We ate at the Melting Pot, lazed around the hotel, and walked the strip. We had planned on doing a little hiking in the Smokies, but neither of us felt up to it. At least we looked cute in our hiking boots. The food at the Melting Pot was so good! The service, not so much. We had a reservation, but we still waited twenty minutes to be seated. When we were finally seated it took another fifteen minutes before we got drinks. I know our waitress was busy because she had a large group. Still, what is the point in even making a reservation? It took too long in between courses. I am so picky about customer service.

I am kind of down today because I was putting everything I had into that last cycle. I just knew it would work, and when it didn’t I got really upset. Then my period has been really bad. And hubs and I were both on edge because we knew he would be leaving for Japan this week. I never quite relax when he is out of town. Especially when he is across the world from me. I know this will be a great experience for him, even though he is there for business and not pleasure. I miss him like crazy already. We are staying in touch through Skype, but we haven’t quite figured out a schedule where one of us isn’t staying up way late or getting up at the crack of dawn. I think it will work  out when he gets up for the day, because it will still be early evening for me.

Today is cycle day 6, and third time is a charm right? I am so hoping for a baby this year, and we are quickly approaching our last chance for a 2013 baby. My progesterone was perfect on my last mid-cycle draw. With any luck, my body will keep it up. Every time I look at the clock and the numbers are all the same digit, I make a wish. It’s always the same wish. This has been happening at least once a day for a while. Has to mean something. I am hoping it means we will get our miracle.

We finalized our plans for our renewal ceremony. I ordered my invites, and will send them out this week. We are borrowing folding tables and chairs from work. I am in the process of looking for pink and black table cloths that look vintage and a little fiesta-ish. We are still planning to have Moe’s catered in. I am ordering the sky lanterns soon, and I am making a list of love songs to play from my iPod. I have an appointment to pick out flowers next month. I have been getting lots of inspiration from Pinterest. I hope it all comes together. In the end though, the only thing that matters to me is having everyone I love surrounding us.

At least I have plenty to do to stay busy until hubs gets back. Then I have buying the new car to look forward to. I also started gathering information about adoption and becoming foster parents. Our first step is taking the PATH classes and do the home study. We will get into all of that when he gets back. I am just going to sit back and do some more wishing, hoping, and planning. ❤